I Want Change In My Life

I woke up earlier tonight and decided that I wanted coffee. Since my body is on a night schedule again, I may as well enjoy the coffee and flavored creamers that I bought this afternoon. Normally I perk my coffee on the rare occasions that I think my stomach can handle having it. Then it dawned on me, I have a practically brand new Mr. Coffee sitting in my pantry why am I not using it? It got me thinking about things. This has been the story of my life for the past six years. When I moved to New Hampshire back in 2000 it was the intention of getting my life back together, getting on my feet and getting out on my own. My mother and stepfather very generously allowed me to live with them for the two years that it took for me to straighten out my debt, get a stable job, buy a car, and lastly start accquiring furnishings for my own place.

I bought everything I thought I would need. Every small appliance that most people would need. Flatware, dinnerware, barware, stemware, cookware, cutlery, etc… You name it, I’ve got it. Some of it is very unique and quirky and fun. But as I got settled into my own place for some reason, the life that I had imagined didn’t exactly pan out the way I had planned. Part of it was that I really didn’t connect with many of the people that I was working with at the time. Too many of the girls seemed like they just had too much drama on their hands to want to even really get too deep into that circle and others well, we just didn’t have common interests. I was the fish out of water, a girl from NY who was used to things way different. Everything just seemed really boring here.

So all of these really nice things that I had purchased remain unused and stashed away waiting for the time when I get a life.  My god how tragic, lol! So I pulled that Mr. Coffee out of the closet and it’s now on my counter waiting to be used more regularly. The coffee maker is really minutia, it’s more the symbology of the act of moving it out to be used. I’ve decided I do want a life. I had ideas of entertaining and having like minded friends that I could have over and we could enjoy discussing things that interest us. The clearing out process has allowed me to really take stock of what I have in my house and so far as I can tell, I love everything I have. So I’ve made a point to eventually use everything I own and I have been doing a pretty good job at it.

My next goal is to start up either a meetup or a tribe in the Monadnock region to get people who are into manifesting and law of attraction to gather and co-create. I can see myself doing it. While I was in the kitchen earlier I was visualizing what kinds of snacks I could prepare, drinks, where people would sit, what we would talk about, how long and how often these meetings would be. I think it’s a very palpable goal that I should not have a problem achieving. Enjoying life is making it be whatever you want it to be. If that means entertaining people from the comfort of your own home, than that’s what it is. There are no definitions and no limitations and we can mix it up and have fun. All I know is that it is just a tiny action to create a huge shift in my own life. I’m going to do it!