Inconsistent intent wreaks havoc

it’s been a while since I recorded a video. Actually, I had recorded one but then I had a system crash and lost everything that was in my documents. This has been a weird season for me. I have gradually fallen off of doing my intentions, saying my affirmations, slowly losing grip on my faith and not doing any meditation. Over all I’m really feeling better (although I have a little heartburn right now from coffee) emotionally and mentally. Physically, I am not so exhausted but I do have this persistent sinus thing going on. I do think the exhaustion was more emotional at the root cause of that.

There was this really weird fog that I was in for weeks. I felt catatonic and completely numb.  I think it is a part of grief.  It has been very imporant for me to give myself a little fun, down time. I’ve been playing games, watching my shows, stepping away from the computer and making sure I get rest. It’s been difficult because I do work for people on a regular basis and it’s hard to say no sometimes.  But I’ve made a decision that sometimes I just have to disconnect from the internet otherwise I will be working all day.  I’ve also taken stock of what I’m doing and mentally let go of some things and also have decided to restructure and organize my tasks to free up my time. Spending an hour and a half one day to write a month’s worth of posts for a blog has proven to lift a gigantic load off of my shoulders.

My focus is around money these days. How I can create more of it and how to work less. Working yourself into the ground is just not healthy.  I’ve watched quite a few documentaries and it has changed my outlook on my life and the country and the economy and have decided that I really need to do something about my present. I’m reading new stuff, educating myself and figuring out a new plan for myself. Other than that, today is a good day to get myself back on track with everything and stop putting it off.