You Can Heal Your Life Conference

Oct. 4th was the You Can Heal Your life conference down in NYC and my friend Vikki and I attended. It really was a great day filled with a lot of information to really get my mind ticking and flowing. I came home with a lot of books and a lot of things that I want to research and learn about. I bought another of Gregg Braden’s books Fractal Time and have been listening to that on iTunes. I also got my hands on a copy of Lost Symbol which was very entertaining to read. I just devoured that book cover to cover.

But I have to tell you, I’ve been feeling very disconnected. I haven’t been in that magical place where things come to me. It’s not to say that I’m feeling down or anything, I guess I’m just in limbo and in a very frustrated place.  There has been a lot of focus on work. In fact that is all there has been focus on.  It doesn’t have to be this hard to earn a good living and this woman who owns the company that I work for just keeps drumming it into everyone’s head that you have to work really really hard for the money.  I found myself not enjoying my time so much and depriving myself of sleep so that I can be on all hours of the day to take calls. It got to be insane.

Part of me did it because I had to earn a lot of money to take care of something that happened with my banking account and a bunch of other unforeseen bills that came my way this month. But I’m at the end of this working hard bullshit. I haven’t had time for any of my practices. I haven’t had time and more importantly the energy to meditate and it’s driving me bananas. I feel like I’m slipping back. I’m taking my Sunday’s back for my day off. No more working through my days off either. I need that time for me. Time away from the phone and time to not think about work and put that back into my practices and connecting with that feeling I am trying to achieve.  I need to be in that place of happiness where I’m able to see things unfold.