A fresh look

Mmm, a fresh look. That can be interpreted so many ways. We can look at our lives with a fresh, new, look. We can see ourselves with a fresh look. But what I’m really talking about here is the blog’s new appearance. It was about time it had a makeover. A fresh start deserves a fresh appearance. Well, the colors are the same but the rest is well… improved.  So Voila!

I entertain myself while I’m sitting here by catching up on tv shows that I miss during the week because I don’t like to take the time away from what I’m doing. My new favorite show is “The Starter Wife”.  It has been refreshing for me to see just how much women give up of themselves for men. I’ve haven’t really wanted to do that to have children so I know for a certainty that I do not want to give up any part of my life, or interests, or desires for a man. It’s not to say that if the right man comes along that I wouldn’t be willing to share my life with him, and have children with him. I’ve just sworn to myself that as long as I’m single I would never have a child.

I just want to make sure I’m established with what I’m doing before I make those compromises. I guess then I will be ready for the right person to come into my life. All this time I was playing with all the wrong people, trying to fit them into a round hole. Doesn’t mean I didn’t love them or care about them, on the contrary I did and that’s why I tried so hard to fit them into a place they weren’t going to fit in no matter how hard I tried. But my point being is that while I may have been in a hurry to get back in the saddle and put someone in between me and the last person, I really don’t want to be in a relationship with anyone right now, and definitely not just to be in one. I’ve had to stop and take a good look at my single life and realize that it’s more than ok, it’s pretty good actually. I really just need the time to heal my heart from this. One thing about me that I’ve known for a long time now, is that if I am alone I will be just fine. It’s just sometimes you find that someone who makes you think that it might be worth going about having your good time with them. I’m not going to pretend that I’m not a feeling person and that when things end with someone who was special to you is not painful. I know there are certain people who will revel in that fact but oh well. This is a hater free zone lol so bzzz.. bee gone! LOL!