Twin Snakes

I haven’t really sat down to journal about anything lately other than to post my latest vlogs from Youtube on to here. I’ve been working many hours these past two weeks and I am looking to do everything that I can to continue to do so. Today I finally decided to take my official day off and just rest. I cleaned the house on Friday which was long overdue. It’s not like my apartment gets nasty, but it did need some serious vacuuming and dusting. Cleaning underneath the bed brought a breath of fresh air with it so to speak and two clients contacted me today to do wordpress updates for them so that was a quick and easy $145 unexpectedly falling right into my lap.

I splurged on myself today at TJ Maxx with some of the money I received. It’s really funny how I wanted maxi dresses so bad and sure enough I hit their clearance rack and found three more maxi dresses on super clearance for $3.00 each! That was a super great find, it was completely unexpected and I am very happy that I decided to go there. The rest I will just hold on to until October when I go to the city for the conference.

I have been working at focusing on really just relaxing about money so that it can flow to me more. The rent situation is still something that I have a lot of resistance on and can see that it’s still going to take me some time to get my feelings where they should be in order to have everything fall into place for me. Listening to my new audio book by Edwene Gaines has been a breath of fresh air as well as several other books I have read or listened to in the last few weeks. I guess I have to just find the right practice for me to help me feel better about the finances overall and that will take some time to figure out which works best for me.

This morning I had a really weird dream. I kind of take these power naps early in the morning while I am working. During the time of the night when I know the phones are slow and not many people are calling in. I usually set my alarm on my cell phone and sleep with everything I need right next to me so I can jot things down. I must have been in that lucid state of dreaming but I can remember very vividly dreaming of two big, albino, ball pythons who were trying to attack me and keep me back. The setting was a swampy forest, sort of like the Bartlett Arboretum but overrun with rain and dampness and the snakes were in the water coiled up sort of and trying to constrict on my legs.

I am not really big on dream interpretations but this had to be something significant that is on my mind. It’s certainly not snakes in the grass because they were in water. The fact that they were both albino is really weird too. Some of the interpretations that I looked up online say that it can mean many things, one of them signifying death. I can kind of see that since my brother’s father is dying of cancer and it has progressed very rapidly this past week. So I don’t know if it is because of that or because of other things.

I talked to my friend Vikki tonight and she helped me try and figure out what some of the symbols mean and I think it shed more light on what’s going on with me. But she said that trees and water symbolize life and the snakes, constraint. The fact that they were twin snakes and on both sides of me means that something mental and physical is keeping me back. What, I have no idea. But I guess it’s my job to find out. I don’t know what’s in store, but I shall soon see.