Unexpected Money

This month has been a bit rough for me. I am still learning how to allow things to come into my life. The only way to do that is to let go of all of the negative emotions you feel about a certain subject. Actually, you have to let go of resistance of all subjects in order for yourself to really receive what you are asking for. My frame of mind last week was one of worry, disappointment, fear, and resentment a little bit. By Friday everything started to change.

I didn’t know where I was going to get money from this month and I was really feeling the pressure of coming up with it because of a couple of other contrasting experiences that I am living with in my life at this moment.  I was worrying all week, Wednesday I went up to my mother’s house to see her new dog and that really brought me a lot of excitement and a lot of joy. Just to see this spunky, energetic dog in their lives and how much it helps my mother cope with her pain and the loss of her other dog it really brings me a lot of happiness.

I recorded a lot of video of her so I could show it to my brothers. I ended up sleeping at my mother’s house for the night because I had some laundry to do and I didn’t feel like rushing back home.  In the back of my mind there is always the thought that if I’m not home, I’m not making money. So I tried my best to just put those thoughts out of my head. LOL as crazy as this next part is, my mother has a statue of the Virgin Mary in her bedroom and she testifies to the power of praying to her and at Christmas time while I was in bed, I was looking up at the statue asking for the strength to let go of some things.

I was able to peacefully let the stuff that was weighing on me heavily, go. So I did the same thing this time as well. Only I didn’t feel as at ease about the whole thing, there was a tiny little nagging feeling. When I got home Thursday it was late in the day and I was still kind of tired and couldn’t really bring myself to to much of the work that I needed to do so I went to bed early. Friday my best friend Margo calls me and she wants to know my paypal address. She sent me money because she just received her income tax return! I was floored and felt so grateful because there are so many times when Margo has given to me. That changed my state of mind and the rest of the weekend went pretty smoothly as far as earning income. By last night my main client was sending me two weeks worth of payment for design work so in just 48 hours I had my situation covered!

So I am giving this little miracle worker the credit for uplifting my heart to the point that every time I watch this video I smile. She gave me the ability to just relax and let go and trust that the universe will figure it all out for me.