My intentions for this week

Well last week I had the intention to make a new video for my 100 challenge. Just as I was about to start recording I received a very unexpected phone call from someone who I had not spoken to in many months. There had been some things set in motion that was the catalyst for the phone call and while it was in a very negative place when the conversation started, so many questions were answered by the time we were through.  Misunderstandings and misperceptions are the worst thing for healthy communication between two people and it really saddens me that this happens at times. However, so much healing came from it.  Up until that moment I really was unaware of just how much anger I was still holding onto because of things that had happened.

Everything lifted instantly after those two calls. My faith had been crumbling for months and everything that I had believed about the person had been questioned and I resigned myself to believe everything bad that people were telling me to help me cope with my grief over the whole thing.  In any event, there were some not so nice things that occurred and I can see that I still have residual issues from dealing with other people from my past that cause me to act out in ways I’m not very fond of at all. There are parts of ourselves that will never go away, the only thing we can do is choose to not act on them anymore.

All in all, I’m happy with the outcome. Perhaps we can be friends again one day. For right now I am just grateful to have long misunderstandings finally corrected and the stress of trying to figure out what exactly happened between us no longer on my mind. I’m at peace with it all.  I can move forward and be happy for me.