Idealism vs realism

Many people in my life or who have been in my life are Realists. I guess I have always been an Idealist. A lot of the time I cannot understand their logic. I do realize that for every situation the reality of it is what it is. However, if I had accepted the reality that I didn’t know how to design a website or know anything about the workings of the web I would never have thought it was possible that I could teach myself everything that I know today. Yet here I am six years later with a wealth of knowledge on a myriad of things that pertain to earning a living through the internet. I am fully aware of the social climate of the times and as contradictory as this might be… I earn a good portion of my living by that understanding, however I do not live my life by that same mind of the times.

I choose not to connect my thinking into the current social collective consciousness which most people currently do. I am staying more and more away from reality tv, tabloids, and over all general fodder that is permeating it’s way into our lives through every form of media available. I will agree that yes, I am more in tune with a different stream of consciousness that is for I believe is my betterment. That has created cause for me losing various friendships and relationships in my life in the last 18 months. So while most of the people in my life are zigging, I’m zagging. It’s not to say either one is right or wrong, but it will determine where you end up in your life for sure. I just think that every time we choose something for ourselves that is not aligning us with better for us we will create a chain reaction of things that are not good for our lives.

I see this going on in my life daily in different things that I do. I want to change that and I can see where my problem areas still exist. I can see that there are things that I do that are completely unconscious and even though I know they are not smart choices I do them because of lower thinking and then the reprecussions of those actions just makes matters worse for me. They are just habits and compulsions I have had for a very long time and learning how to break them is proving to be challenging. It requires changing your beliefs about everything you think about those particular areas in your life. LOL there are thoughts in my head that I am fighting at this very moment because the post I was planning on writing today had nothing to do with this but did have to do with what I have currently observed. Learning to train my mind to not go to some deeply ingrained beliefs and ways of viewing things can be a daunting task and I see the contradictions in some of my posts.

I just know that being more like how I was a few years ago… saying downright despicable things to people is not who I want to be. Having experience with other people who represent those behaviors within myself have allowed me to take a REALLY good look inside and identify those characteristics within me that need changing. I believe there will be a day where I won’t have the ill-thoughts towards others who I perceive to be hurtful. I believe there will be a day when I can conquer my own feelings and my own mouth and not say hurtful things or do anything that is hurtful to others as well. Recognizing that unconscious emotional knee-jerk reactions are detrimental to what I’m striving to achieve was a big thing to see.

So in any event… I’m not better than anyone and nobody is better than me. There is no “good” or “bad” way and no “right” and “wrong”. There are just different ways of doing things and getting different results due to them. LOL I still prefer to look at life as an idealist and seeing things for how I want them to be instead of how they are. Otherwise what chance do we have for changing the things we don’t want in our lives? Albert Einstein has said that the most important question a human can ask themselves is “Is this a friendly universe”?