Day 100 Season 5 Complete!

Season 5 has been completed as of Friday. I feel that this time around I accomplished so much as far as lining myself up to what it is I want and then allowing those things to come my way. Along the way there have been some very pleasant changes. My mother adopted a new bulldog and she’s been a big source of joy in my life for so many reasons and that in itself catapulted me into such a good feeling place that things just started happening and coming together.

In March I finally decided to take charge of my feelings and be finished with mourning a relationship lost. I also decided it was time to really start living and enjoying my time where I am right now and stop trying to escape the geography and my situation. I need to embrace it and accept this is where I am for right now but that doesn’t mean forever and there is no point in not living it up as much as I can until I get where I want to be. I wrote out a list of the traits of what I wanted in a man who would be my ideal partner. I had countless journal entries where I had written books of positive aspects and rampages of appreciation to help me feel better about the person who was gone and feel better about myself.

My affirmations were always in the back of my head and eventually I finally pulled myself out of my funk. My mother is getting some of the care that she needs which is making me feel good because there was a lot of guilt of not being able to help her and kind of a feeling of abandonment. She ended up in the hospital twice since the beginning of March and I am grateful for that time she was in there because for one thing she got some rest, and for another she got some much needed care. She now has a visiting nurse who comes throughout the week. She got a new motorized reclining chair to help her so that she can keep her feet elevated the way she should. She’s got someone coming in to do housecleaning for her every other week. These are all little things that are good for her and I am happy she is being taken care of.

I intended to make more money and that is now happening. I believe that in a very short time that I will be making the amount of income that I wanted to be making at the beginning of this season. Overall I feel like I accomplished a lot of growth and gained immense understanding of how it all really works. I am eagerly waiting the start of season 6 which will begin May 1.

Day 91 Season 5 Feeling in the Flow and Appreciating

Amazing Manifestations

I would have to say that losing your fear of everything that you could would be the quickest way to getting things that you want in your life. When I say things I don’t necessarily mean material things. I mean things in experiences, people, employment, or that new car you have been desiring for a very long time. I learned over the years even before learning about what the Law of Attraction even is, I realized that once I experienced something that I had feared, the second time around it wasn’t so bad. I am going through something like this right now. Once you actually go through what you think can be the worst thing to go through you realize it’s manageable and you are going to be ok and everything will work out for the best.

The second thing that you need to really work on is believing in yourself. I didn’t come from a family that nurtured dreams or to strive for something better. They were too caught up in the reality of everything going on in their lives, grandparents who were negative and dragged my mother down. My mother who had two failed marriages and worked like a dog her whole life because that was all she was ever told and shown that she could do. I just learned how to berate and belittle myself and put myself into emotionally and mentally abusive situations over and over and over again through my entire adult life.

Maybe my thirties have been for me to wake up and really look at my life and where I’m going. I got off to a slow start but I’ve lost a lot of my fears. No matter what I will be alright and when I learn to just let go of the worrying about how this will come or that will come, things arrive right on time. I’ve got a great new very well paying job, I have met a nice new guy who fits so many things on my list for my ideal partner and so many other wishes that I had put out there about a previous lover that it really just leaves me awed and absolutely thrilled to see how it will all unfold. I only have control of myself and how I approach things in my life. I’m learning how to do it really, finally. I’m getting great results and it feels so good!

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