Day 1 Season 5 Intentions
January 15, 2009
Today is the start of my brand new season of the 100 day challenge and I have set my intentions for the next 100 days. I am focusing on just two areas in my life this time around. I will be concentrating on increasing my monthly income and the other intention will be to improve my health and slim down. I am going to try a new to me way of getting the weight off and I’m amped to get started. Along the way I will be implementing several practices to make my success greater. Those would be meditation, reading more books that uplift and listening to new cds that I have subscribed to. This should be a very successful season.
Crystal Clear Clarity
January 12, 2009
Tonight I fell asleep for a little while even though I meant to be working but I think I am happy that I did because I had a clarifying dream. I’ve been talking lately about how badly I want to leave here. I thought that my life was giving me signs that where I wanted to go was the place for me. Now I’m thinking maybe not. Going home is not going to answer all of my problems either. That’s what my dream was telling me tonight.
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Day 100 total indulgence
January 9, 2009
This morning I decided that I wanted to give myself one of my intentions for this challenge which was to buy myself better makeup. What better time to do that then on the last day of the challenge lol? Well I’ve been very inspired by a lot of girls all over the internet who are on the whole blending craze and I splurged on lots of makeup. Actually I got incredible deals on a lot of it because both of the stores I hit were running amazing BOGO sales so some of them I got for free. I also splurged on a little something else that I’m waiting for in the mail. That will be sometime next week. I had so much fun today playing around with the makeup and creating new looks for myself that it’s made me so very happy.
I also had a ton of clarity the last two days. Recognizing patterns in my life from years ago that I did not recognize. Seeing my mistakes being made over and over again through every relationship. Why did it have to sacrifice this last relationship for me to finally see that? Any way huge, huge, HUGE things came into the light these two days and it’s giving me a lot to think about.
There was a strange phone call today from the hospital that was on my caller ID when I got home which automatically put me on alert thinking that my mother had been admitted. Of course guilt started to settle in due to the fight I had with her last week about her health. I ended up talking to her neighbor and she told me that she shares a lot of the feelings about my mother needing to do something to better improve her life and to definitely find another doctor and get a second opinion and fast. It was such a relief for me to hear that she’s on the same page about getting my mother’s ass in gear and not let her wallow in her misery. Neither her nor my stepfather are in any real position to be screwing around with their health and avoiding problems and responsibilities they are supposed to be taking care of to help along the way.
At this point I still don’t know what the game plan is but I’m thankful that there is support on my side to try and get my mother the best quality of life that we can for her. It’s all going to be one day at a time. Until then I have to go to sleep. I’ve got a few days before the new challenge starts on the 15th of this month so I will have to think about the new intentions. Till then…
