That has nothing to do with me
October 25, 2008
“That has nothing to do with me”. Those words are easily spoken but actually applying them can sometimes be difficult. I have noticed that with the economy being the way it is, sometimes I cannot help but feel that it does affect me. I am also feeling this way lately about relationships. I can see that I am still learning how to not let things affect me. I was just speaking to my mother about 45 minutes ago and saying how much the hurt of being separated from someone I care deeply about has completely drained me. She was saying I was clinically depressed and frankly I don’t think that is it at all. I just feel that I’m dealing with grief, loss, and betrayal and these things are not gotten over quickly. I also do not want to become so detached from my inner-self that I turn into a sociopath. Because in a lot of ways, the person I am feeling the grief over is sociopathic in a mild way. I read that list and I can see the man I was friends with last year clearly defined in every one of those characteristics. He is a full blown sociopath. So it’s not difficult for me to see these same traits in the man who I have recently parted ways with. It’s so sad but so true but in my mind I still hope for that little bit of recognition that says, “Nicole, I’m sorry I hurt you”.
Atrracting Twitter Followers
October 24, 2008
For the last couple of weeks now I think I have finally started to learn what fun twittering can be. There are people obsessed with twitter and I think it’s cool. I totally get the power of this little tool, I do. One of my girlfriends sent me a link to twirl.org and all of a sudden it turned twitter into this handy little IM application for all of my twitter accounts. Well what all, I have two accounts lol big whoop. But the really great thing is there are all these techies, graphics geeks, bloggers who have started using it so I’ve started following a lot of their streams. This is where my anxiety comes in lol…
Day 32 Season 4
October 23, 2008
This morning was a good way to kick myself in the ass and realize that I was wallowing in self-pity and focusing on stuff and people that do not matter. Expending energy on people who do not deserve one ounce of mine. Having re-watched a previous video was what I needed to snap myself out of this crap and get back to what it is I am supposed to be focusing on, me and my money.
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