100DayChallenge Day95 Manifestation
September 15, 2008
My season three is just about winding itself up and I’m excited to start on a new challenge and see what exciting things can be manifested this time. The video speaks for itself.
Listen to your inner guidance
September 13, 2008
Our inner guidance is the most important thing we can ever listen to. Sometimes we are drawn to things and we don’t really understand why. Last weekend I was in Walmart picking up just a few essentials and decided that I wanted to treat myself to a good fiction book that would just take me out of my typical work day and would be a change from the types of books I have been reading lately. Several months ago I got rid of all the fiction books that I had so everything in my book shelf is informational and instructional. I had been listening to morning coach archives that day and he happened to be talking about getting yourself some kind of fiction to read because these are the kinds of things we need. We need these temporary distractions sometimes.
V. had told me about the Twilight book series and I thought I might be interested in reading them and I saw they had it but then right below that book I saw “The Secret Life of Bees”. I read the back of it and knew this was the book I needed to read. This one has a reader’s guide in the back and here is an excerpt from the first page… “Addressing the wounds of loss, betrayal, and the scarcity of love, Kidd demonstrates the power of women coming together to heal those wounds, to mother each other and themselves, and to create a sanctuary of true family and home”. This book really speaks to the wounded inner child in a lot of people who carry their story around for the rest of their lives, often feeling unloved into adulthood and what happens when life doesn’t turn out the way you want it to and what it can do to people. It’s about forgiveness and the ability of love to transform our lives. The sentence that struck me the most through the whole book was in the last chapter of the book, just three pages from the end when Lily’s father comes to take her back home and she is saying how she still thinks to herself that when her father drove away that day instead of having said “good riddance” he was actually saying, Oh Lily, you are better off there in that house of colored women. You never would’ve flowered with me like you will with them.
I thought how fitting that was for me and to help me realize that some things are for our own good. Some people know when they can only be a disservice to us and prevent us from ever reaching our truest potential. The last chapter of the book really got me many times over. I do feel I was drawn to this book for the purpose of healing and being able to accept things as they are and move on with my life with love and strength in my heart.
Seeing Negatives as Positives
September 12, 2008
I’ve been a little caught up in some stuff today. I can see that I am finally letting go and releasing and accepting certan parts of my life as over. In the span of one year I lost three people who were closely connected to me in my personal life. I noticed that every one of them has a problem with chronic lying and negative ways of thinking. I know that is what I do not want. There is that contrast again. It’s only taken me about 18 years to realize that I don’t want backstabbing women as friends and I don’t want cheating, deceitful, lost, and damaged men as companions/boyfriends. I did definitely struggle with the last one leaving, there is no question about that. I resisted it as much as I could because I was so headstrong about him but in the end it didn’t change the end result.
I’ve rid my computer of anything that reminds of me these men and the old friend and got rid of the vision board I had created and proceeded to go out and buy new materials to make new ones. I give thanks for what I’ve learned, and now I know what I want. Not only do I know what I want, but I also know that I deserve it and that it will come to me. I’m learning to take leaps of faith and stop worrying. Yesterday I demostrated my faith with money and I received much more than I gave out. That made me feel blessed.
