Day 100 Season 5 Complete!

Season 5 has been completed as of Friday. I feel that this time around I accomplished so much as far as lining myself up to what it is I want and then allowing those things to come my way. Along the way there have been some very pleasant changes. My mother adopted a new bulldog and she’s been a big source of joy in my life for so many reasons and that in itself catapulted me into such a good feeling place that things just started happening and coming together.

In March I finally decided to take charge of my feelings and be finished with mourning a relationship lost. I also decided it was time to really start living and enjoying my time where I am right now and stop trying to escape the geography and my situation. I need to embrace it and accept this is where I am for right now but that doesn’t mean forever and there is no point in not living it up as much as I can until I get where I want to be. I wrote out a list of the traits of what I wanted in a man who would be my ideal partner. I had countless journal entries where I had written books of positive aspects and rampages of appreciation to help me feel better about the person who was gone and feel better about myself.

My affirmations were always in the back of my head and eventually I finally pulled myself out of my funk. My mother is getting some of the care that she needs which is making me feel good because there was a lot of guilt of not being able to help her and kind of a feeling of abandonment. She ended up in the hospital twice since the beginning of March and I am grateful for that time she was in there because for one thing she got some rest, and for another she got some much needed care. She now has a visiting nurse who comes throughout the week. She got a new motorized reclining chair to help her so that she can keep her feet elevated the way she should. She’s got someone coming in to do housecleaning for her every other week. These are all little things that are good for her and I am happy she is being taken care of.

I intended to make more money and that is now happening. I believe that in a very short time that I will be making the amount of income that I wanted to be making at the beginning of this season. Overall I feel like I accomplished a lot of growth and gained immense understanding of how it all really works. I am eagerly waiting the start of season 6 which will begin May 1.