100 Day Challenge-Season 2-Day 49

Yesterday was a downer day for me. I decided that I needed to pull myself up by whatever means necessary and get my ass in gear. I just started reading some more and realizing that I have been making myself just a wreck. Did my short video for the 100 day challenge for today. I am doing my best to keep current with my progress, my ups and downs so that I have a better understanding of myself and how I am coming along with everything. I am proud of myself for being able to tap into my feelings and change my mood with a little work.


I am rebuilding one of my websites. I had originally installed 5 copies of wordpress for different subjects and sort of made sub-sites within the main website but that got to be a lot of work. Then I decided to get rid of all but the main blog. Finally about two weeks ago I decided that I needed to get rid of the blog all together on that website and install joomla. LOL So I did and today I got the brilliant idea that I should upgrade from 1.0 to 1.5. Thinking all I had to do was write over the original version that would take care of it and I would run the upgrade module. LOL Guess what? There is no upgrade module lol so I messed up! So I’m back to square one with the site but on a good note, the template I got for it is smoking hot and I made a nice little web 2.0 logo for it and now I can fill it up with the kind of content I want in the way that I want. This is going to be a huge task but I’m willing to put in the effort that I think will pay off in the end.

There was something else on my mind today when I finally worked things out. I was thinking about something he said to me the last time we spoke. “I hope you realize how much you mean to me”. At the time I said what I said as a reply and it was good but I thought about this statement some more. What I really should have said in response was that I hope they realize how much I mean to them. I’m not the one who has to realize it, now am I? Once that happens, that’s when it will all start to click. In the meantime I am steady preparing for what I know is to come.