Part Time Tarot Reading

I have made some major major changes to my life since the summer. I don’t think I have updated this site in several months but since September I look a job outside of my home which is a first for me in 9 years. But you see, that wasn’t enough for me. I had to challenge myself and get a second job. So now I have two full time jobs which has me working 80 hours a week. It is helping me meet a lot of my financial and lifestyle goals though. I’m still young and I can still push myself to do what I feel I need to do to make my life comfortable.  So now that things have been settling down and I’m in a regular routine, I have been looking to offer my Tarot Card and reading services once again. It will have to be on a part time basis but it’s better than not doing it at all.

I was really having a lot of fun providing advice and guidance for people. It gave me a whole new venue to express myself and connect with people. So I am a longing to get back into and have some fun doing it.  I truly felt like I had found my niche and this is something that I can be really good at with lots more focus. So we’ll see how things are going.  My life is just crazy and busy and in constant flux at the moment. Lots and lots of changes to get me to be were I need to be to be happy.  I always knew that all I had to do was get my butt back to NY and the world of possibilities would open up for me and damn was I right in more ways that I thought lol.

Courageous Self Love

To truly love oneself is a very courageous act.  In order to be able to honor your soul’s needs and desires there sometimes comes a time when you decide that going with the status quo is harmful to your emotional health. Making this choice however does come with a price, you just need to decide what exactly you are willing to sacrifice for which choice. Women do this every single day that they stay with a man who does not treat them the way they deserve to be treated, with kindness and respect. Men have turned the world upside down and have learned to use feminism to their advantage and have learned to prey upon women’s insecurities to manipulate situations in their favor.

This is not to say that every man is like this, just the bad ones.  They would have you believe there are many more women vying for their attention who are more willing to do whatever it takes to end up getting used by that male. Accepting this way of thinking as truth results in you being vulnerable to falling prey to the types of men who would have you believing it. Of course they are going to do everything to convince you that loving yourself first by not giving into the pressures to let him seduce you is the wrong thing to do.  That’s the game. You have to learn to understand the game. Actually, no you don’t. Understanding the game is irrelevant. All you have to do is make a conscious choice that you are not going to let anyone else use you (your mind) or your body for defilement.

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Friends With Benefits

Now, before anyone gets excited with the title of this post, this is in reference to the new movie out with Justin Timberlake and Mila Kunis.  I watched it tonight and it was actually pretty good. I like Mila Kunis and I think her and Justin have good on-screen chemistry. So there is the whole premise of the movie. This idea that two people of the opposite sex thinking that they can mix friendship with sex. The kind of friends who spend a lot of time together and getting to know each other, sharing their innermost personal feelings about things that they don’t share with other people. They eventually develop feelings for each other. The boat gets blown out of the water. This simple agreement that two grown people enter in to seems to never quite work out the way that they intended it to. Yet they keep doing it again and again, screwing themselves up emotionally more and more with each try.  It would seem that if you saw this movie you would think that the writers and the directors had some direct line to tap into your personal heartbreak and experiences because how else could they capture exactly how you feel? Or could it be that people involved in those very same situations are going through the exact same emotions? Maybe all of the single twenty-something and thirty-something women have the exact same wishes and dreams for themselves. Wonder why? The answer to that is for this post but it’s not by coincidence.

We live in a world where people are emotionally damaged and emotionally cut off from themselves.  They literally separate themselves from their own emotional guidance system. I understand it, it’s a survival tactic. Lately I have been confronted with a ghost from my past and he is a pretty nasty one. He’s the kind of ghost who forever sucks the life out of you because he lost his soul. He doesn’t have any idea of how to find it and more importantly is that he doesn’t want to.  Frankly, I’m sick of being haunted by this ghost.  Since I worked a lot on healing my own emotional damage it is no real surprise to me that whenever I see this person that the wound opens up. I do not know why I always perceived a higher connection with this individual but I did. I had hoped that time would severe it and for the most part it has. That actual connection is in fact severed but it just seems that as far as the internet goes, one cannot escape certain people unless you really make a conscience choice to not mingle in places that could potentially be a shitting ground for the other person. So that is what I have chosen to do.

I have no desire to close myself from my emotional centers ever again no matter how badly things might hurt when it comes to friendships, relationships, betrayals or otherwise. So the only thing that is logical and more downstream is to remove myself from the situation. It is the path of least resistance. And that is how you exorcise these ghosts, you cut off their life support.

Experimenting With The Law of Attraction

I always have to remind myself that the law of attraction does work in our favor when we align with those things we put out there but are not seriously attached to. The hard part is trying to turn your attention to something else so that you no longer notice you don’t have what you want just yet.
In the second half I talk about deeper esoteric teachings and the root of all major practices and ideologies when I mention hermeticism and alchemy and the perrenial tradition. I’m so ready for this….

My Spiritual Goals for Me and You

These days I am diligently trying to learn as fast as I can but not to the point where I cannot absorb what I am taking in.  For several years now I have been an avid manifester and fan of some of the foremost spiritual speakers out today. Some of them would advise that people just go about their lives and not to focus on the day to day activities of the world that make us uncomfortable. To not give attention to it.  I do agree to some respect, we owe it to ourselves to turn off all of the outside chatter and we have to arm ourselves with tools for learning so that we do not take in bad information. I have been on my spiritual journey for over four years now.  I love the law of attraction and many of the teachers who show us how to do it. One thing that I have always noticed is that manifesting has always seemed a lot like witchcraft to me.  Having owned books by Raymond Buckland and having dabbled in candle magic when I was younger, I understood the power of intention. I also knew that the Law of Attraction was just the tip of the iceberg and in fact it is a component of something greater, it has it’s roots in Hermetic Tradition.  I would honestly say that the lid was blown off of my head once I read the Alchemist by Paulo Coelho, although a fictional tale, it is an allegory.  Harry Potter is an allegory of current times, as are many other books/movies. They all contain the same Hero’s Journey at the core of them.  And they all reflect the zeitgeist of the day.

I want to say though at some point after all of my current studying with law of attraction and affirmations and healing my life, I reached an apex. I felt that this could not be all there is to my spiritual journey. I felt I was not manifesting anything of major significance and I sort of experienced a feeling of ennui.  I’d say since losing my mother in 2010 something changed for me drastically. This past year has been one of such profound illumination that it is impossible to ignore.  My eyes have been wrenched wide open for me and I have been forced to really look at what my life has been trying to show me. The most important thing I want to achieve is to help people. I want to do more than just give someone a tarot reading because they are worried about whether or not they are going to find their soulmate. I want to show them why they have been having such a hard time with life in general and why they suffer. I want to wake up every individual who crosses my path and show them what we need to do to have a better life.

I want them to understand that we haven’t been educated, we have been indoctrinated. The majority of us have no idea how to think for ourselves and I want them to know that there is a way to change it and a way to learn it.  When people come to me, I want to start to ignite that tiny spark in them that knows there is more to this life.  We cannot afford to be frogs in boiling water any longer. We need to learn as much as we can so that we don’t get lost in the mix.