Free Time
It’s been a while since I’ve been able to breath for a minute and actually write something. For the last five months I’ve been working like a fiend. The only thing is, it’s back in the real world. I have left my cyber world behind, for the moment. I moved back to NY in 2010 after the death of my mother and it’s been a serious struggle trying to sustain my living working from home and being able to get my own place. I had no choice even though, it is not what I wanted to do with myself.
However, in a lot of ways I think it has brought some opportunity my way. Mainly in the way of sharpening my chops on some SEO and web design opportunity and finding an employer who wants to put my know-how to good use. The added benefit is that I can learn from him as well. What has kept me so busy is that I am working for two companies full time, 80 hours a week, 7 days a week. Yup, it’s crazy but it’s bringing in the money and the benefits that working for a small to midsize company can afford such as healthcare, etc…
Everyone thinks I’m nuts for doing it, but frankly at this present moment in time, I see no other way. My finances have improved and in the next two months I will be out of my family’s house and on my own once again. Tonight was my once a month vacation day so that I can actually get a restful weekend and it was extended due to a nasty little bug that popped up in the form of some stomach virus that the whole family got. Fun. I guess I should be grateful though because it’s forced me to get some serious rest and some much needed time to stop and assess my progress and my future plans.
I have no real desire to continue working like a mad woman for a really extended period of time. I might have to do it for a couple of years until I have a strong foothold on where I want to be financially and that’ s okay. I’m still young enough that I can push myself to do it. But I’ve seen real-world effects of what online internet marketing can achieve and I’ve been bitten with the bug again. This time however I am going to take a different approach than I did before. It was a lot harder for me to see and think clearly in a way that allowed me to retain and process the information, it was always painful for me because I was desperate to make it succeed.
I haven’t been able to turn on my psychic chat lines or chat rooms in months either and that has really bothered me because it was fun. Nor have I been able to write in my blog or anywhere else. Everything has just kind of been put on indefinite hold. But I think I have figured out how I can squeeze the most value out of my time and still make this all work. I love it when my brain does what it’s supposed to do lol. But really though, I have to give credit to my re-watching of a documentary from some very intelligent, insightful, and most importantly helpful people which really made the light bulb come on for me. In the second hour of the five hour documentary this quote has left the most indelible impression on me and it’s nothing I will soon forget…
Nothing in the world can take the place of Persistence. Talent will not; nothing is more common than unsuccessful men with talent. Genius will not; unrewarded genius is almost a proverb. Education will not; the world is full of educated derelicts. Persistence and determination alone are omnipotent. The slogan ‘Press On’ has solved and always will solve the problems of the human race.
Part Time Tarot Reading
I have made some major major changes to my life since the summer. I don’t think I have updated this site in several months but since September I look a job outside of my home which is a first for me in 9 years. But you see, that wasn’t enough for me. I had to challenge myself and get a second job. So now I have two full time jobs which has me working 80 hours a week. It is helping me meet a lot of my financial and lifestyle goals though. I’m still young and I can still push myself to do what I feel I need to do to make my life comfortable. So now that things have been settling down and I’m in a regular routine, I have been looking to offer my Tarot Card and reading services once again. It will have to be on a part time basis but it’s better than not doing it at all.
I was really having a lot of fun providing advice and guidance for people. It gave me a whole new venue to express myself and connect with people. So I am a longing to get back into and have some fun doing it. I truly felt like I had found my niche and this is something that I can be really good at with lots more focus. So we’ll see how things are going. My life is just crazy and busy and in constant flux at the moment. Lots and lots of changes to get me to be were I need to be to be happy. I always knew that all I had to do was get my butt back to NY and the world of possibilities would open up for me and damn was I right in more ways that I thought lol. 
Courageous Self Love
To truly love oneself is a very courageous act. In order to be able to honor your soul’s needs and desires there sometimes comes a time when you decide that going with the status quo is harmful to your emotional health. Making this choice however does come with a price, you just need to decide what exactly you are willing to sacrifice for which choice. Women do this every single day that they stay with a man who does not treat them the way they deserve to be treated, with kindness and respect. Men have turned the world upside down and have learned to use feminism to their advantage and have learned to prey upon women’s insecurities to manipulate situations in their favor.
This is not to say that every man is like this, just the bad ones. They would have you believe there are many more women vying for their attention who are more willing to do whatever it takes to end up getting used by that male. Accepting this way of thinking as truth results in you being vulnerable to falling prey to the types of men who would have you believing it. Of course they are going to do everything to convince you that loving yourself first by not giving into the pressures to let him seduce you is the wrong thing to do. That’s the game. You have to learn to understand the game. Actually, no you don’t. Understanding the game is irrelevant. All you have to do is make a conscious choice that you are not going to let anyone else use you (your mind) or your body for defilement.
My Spiritual Goals for Me and You
These days I am diligently trying to learn as fast as I can but not to the point where I cannot absorb what I am taking in. For several years now I have been an avid manifester and fan of some of the foremost spiritual speakers out today. Some of them would advise that people just go about their lives and not to focus on the day to day activities of the world that make us uncomfortable. To not give attention to it. I do agree to some respect, we owe it to ourselves to turn off all of the outside chatter and we have to arm ourselves with tools for learning so that we do not take in bad information. I have been on my spiritual journey for over four years now. I love the law of attraction and many of the teachers who show us how to do it. One thing that I have always noticed is that manifesting has always seemed a lot like witchcraft to me. Having owned books by Raymond Buckland and having dabbled in candle magic when I was younger, I understood the power of intention. I also knew that the Law of Attraction was just the tip of the iceberg and in fact it is a component of something greater, it has it’s roots in Hermetic Tradition. I would honestly say that the lid was blown off of my head once I read the Alchemist by Paulo Coelho, although a fictional tale, it is an allegory. Harry Potter is an allegory of current times, as are many other books/movies. They all contain the same Hero’s Journey at the core of them. And they all reflect the zeitgeist of the day.
I want to say though at some point after all of my current studying with law of attraction and affirmations and healing my life, I reached an apex. I felt that this could not be all there is to my spiritual journey. I felt I was not manifesting anything of major significance and I sort of experienced a feeling of ennui. I’d say since losing my mother in 2010 something changed for me drastically. This past year has been one of such profound illumination that it is impossible to ignore. My eyes have been wrenched wide open for me and I have been forced to really look at what my life has been trying to show me. The most important thing I want to achieve is to help people. I want to do more than just give someone a tarot reading because they are worried about whether or not they are going to find their soulmate. I want to show them why they have been having such a hard time with life in general and why they suffer. I want to wake up every individual who crosses my path and show them what we need to do to have a better life.
I want them to understand that we haven’t been educated, we have been indoctrinated. The majority of us have no idea how to think for ourselves and I want them to know that there is a way to change it and a way to learn it. When people come to me, I want to start to ignite that tiny spark in them that knows there is more to this life. We cannot afford to be frogs in boiling water any longer. We need to learn as much as we can so that we don’t get lost in the mix. 
Get Advice Now
Paypal/Skype
15 minutes = $30.00
30 minutes = $60.00
45 minutes = $90.00
60 minutes = $120.00Call me on Keen.com
Or speak with me live
Recommendations
Socialize
