Nature Around The House

Just some photos I snapped today because I felt inspired by the humming birds and a fabulous picture on Flickr of St. Francis of Assisi Chapel.  There are things guiding me, I’ve been seeing some signs lately. On Tuesday I drove home from visiting the cats and I usually cut across North White Plains and Hawthorne so that I can avoid I-287 during rush hour. Well on my way there don’t you know that it finally clicked in my head about a dream I had last summer?  It wasn’t until I was driving past and the chapel caught my attention. I had not been to Gate of Heaven Cemetery in a long, long, time and I suddenly recognized the chapel from a visit that I took with my grandmother years and years ago. I think I was in my early twenties.  Just below the chapel in the foreground was a pond. That is the significant part.

 

My dream last summer dealt with putting my mother’s ashes to rest. We hadn’t really decided what we were going to do with her ashes and I thought I that I should just keep them. Needless to say, I haven’t purchased an urn for her yet because nothing really felt right for her. I didn’t want something cookie-cutter that everyone else has, I wanted something unique that expressed who she was if that makes any kind of sense at all. I wanted something that was going to act as a tribute to her, I feel she deserves a beautiful glass urn that is far out of my price point at this moment in time.  But I digress, in my dream I remember parking the car at the gate of the cemetery and looking across the street at a pond and saying this is where she should be. This is perfect.

 

 

The thing is, it’s not like I take that route all that often, this is the most I have traveled it in a while. Never did I notice the pond, not once. But I can’t help but wonder today as I found that picture of the chapel that it is in fact called St Francis of Assisi’s chapel (I had no idea it was called that) and I prayed to St. Francis for my cats safe keeping. How is it then that as I am driving to go visit my cats on Tuesday this finally clicks for me? Who connected these dots for me? I think I know what to do now. It’s hard to say 100% and I will wait until I get more clarity on it but if everything is telling me that she should be in Gate of Heaven with our relatives then I will have no choice but to finally lay her to rest there. 

Life Is Flowing Downstream

April showers brings May’s flowers. April was a month of challenges for me.  It was the month of my mother’s birthday and the anniversary of her passing. My brother dropped a bomb on me in March telling me he was moving April 30th, I had to find a new foster home for my cats.  I had to figure out how I was going to make it through the month without really losing my mind. Some how I managed though. I found a very nice woman on craigslist who is taking care of them for me. She had been advertising pet sitting services and everything seemed to just work out. The girls seemed to have settled in pretty nicely. I went to visit them on Tuesday and silly little Chloe actually came out when I called her, my sweet girl.  She had said that it had taken Chloe about two days to consider coming out from under the bed to get acquainted.  I know that little brat better than that, I’m sure at night she was investigating everything. My little babies have been through so much this past year.

 

I did a lot of praying to a couple Saints in April.  St. Jude being one and the other St Francis of Assisi. I never used to believe in praying to saints. I never really believed in my Catholicism. A few years ago my friend told me about St Jude and I took to praying to him in a time of need and he delivered to me. Actually at the time I had written about it on this blog but I’ve since deleted all of those posts(don’t ask me why).  In any event, I would say after the first night of talking to St. Jude, my first round of prayers and requests to him, business has seemed to pick up.  It’s been this way for about three weeks now and it’s still going. I believe in the power of intention and in putting that intention out in the Universe. So if it means that talking to a Saint that I believe in is going to help me believe that my requests will come true, then so be it. So much has been opened up for me these days.

 

Then of course there is St. Francis. I prayed for safe keeping for my cats and prayed that I would find a good temporary home for them.  I had a lot of anxiety for a few days about putting my cats into someone else’s hands for the time being but after praying and letting the intention go, things just fell into place. I believe this has been a month of a lot of growth for me, spiritually. I believe that I had a setback months ago when I came face to face with superstitious and fundemental websites preaching about NWO. It was a new concept for me, one that made me very afraid because it was saying the spiriyotuality I believed was evil, and I think sort of  being “unplugged” so abruptly was more than I could handle. But it has been a quest that I could not stop thinking about. Wanting to know what the hell they were talking about and wanting to understand more of what I had already learned on my own reading and watching many of the spiritual teachers that I have loved for 5 years.

 

Last month was also a month of me discovering Paulo Coelho. How did I not find this author sooner? I fell in love with The Alchemist, The Valkyries, and now The Pilgrimage. It made me fall that much more in love with my audible.com account .  I am now listening to an audio book on Kabbalah and have joined various social networks for talk about the Mystery Schools. You know what? It all just feels right.